I’d like to say I haven’t posted since March because I was too busy, but I know that’s a lie. I’ve avoided posting on this blog because – perhaps like some of the rest of us – I didn’t want to accept the shitshow that is 2020. A pandemic, watching the US seemingly tear itself apart because of unresolved systemic racism, a president who behaves like an autocratic baby, and losing my grandfather have all put quite the damper on this year. I really wish I could say that I’m doing great now, but I know that’s a lie, too.
Yet, if experience has taught me anything, it’s to make the best with what you’re dealt. And despite all that’s happened this year I have to acknowledge that I’ve still been dealt a pretty good hand.
Of course I didn’t intend to move to Germany only to study my degree online, but I’m realizing my life in Germany consists of much more than just studying. It’s political discussions on Tuesdays and ultimate frisbee on Fridays. It’s interesting talks during the Mensatreff at lunch and long bike rides through the surrounding region on the weekends. It’s my job where I get to learn about the field of student mobility. And even in those online classes, it’s also making up games with classmates to keep yourself awake while staring at the computer, such as taking a drink of water every time the professor mentions his hometown. Besides all this, I also have a supportive family, supportive friends, financial security, good health and a purpose to be thankful for.
Yes, I have been dealt a good hand indeed. (and it’s gotten better in the last couple of weeks: we’ve got some vaccines on the way and Donny Small-Hands is on the way out!) So, I suppose this post is more of a reminder to myself to continue making the best out of a shitty situation.
In closing, I’d also like to mention that black lives do and always will matter. Systemic racism is real, and systems are made up of individuals. That means we all, myself included, have a part to play in fixing them. Reading a book is a good way to start
much love,
Ryan
